Hello my name is Stephanie

moved ~

2009-06-09T19:27:00.008+08:00

C'mon to the otherside of the world with me .
Dismantlehearts.bs

we are all made of stars

2009-06-04T21:38:00.004+08:00

talked about dreams , materials , life , family , friendship and our hot hot all time favourite topic god Jesus christ , thats what you get for leaving two girls in the pool under the moon . Must overcome the fear of "thinking sharks might grab hold of my legs" in the pool . ridiculous i know .

next post , on my non-stop eating along streets of the tiny Bah-ranakan town and the so called " scary " trip to kampong glam for i am gonna spend the rest of the night thinking & thinking & thinking even more .

with love

2009-06-02T20:25:00.002+08:00

awwwwh (L)

okay so this is how i spent my weekend when the rest were mugging for chinese O's , sight seeing , nyonya , museum , nando's chicken , local delicacy , seafood , st peter's church , shop (not alot though , its only a small town what do ya expect !) , and more food , sriously this is like a eating drinking trip so unhealthy , 6 big meals a day , Photography speaking of that , haveta wait till i get hold of all the pix from me loves ! Till next time then , toodles !

P/s : I swear im not retaking chinese again becuz i've burn all my stuffs away (: haahhah okay maybe if i get C6 i MAY consider retaking otherwise NAHHHHHHHHHHHHH ! *keep fingers cross till results *

short time solution ain't no resolution

2009-05-31T20:24:00.002+08:00

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

H1N1

2009-05-29T09:33:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAAHHAHAHAH .

monkeh trix

2009-05-25T22:36:00.005+08:00

Guess this is it , leaving in 4 days time for the weekend . i know its only for the weekend but its not just any ordinary weekend its dee only weekend i can use to brush up on my chinese for my MT O's . im really hopeless when it comes to chinese , and i really dont wanna retake . So this trip better be worth it ! & i can already imagine myself enjoying with the rest having fun cracking up silly jokes again . (:

Lights will guide you home

2009-05-24T17:21:00.004+08:00

luv luv you !

Tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Back to the start

2009-05-21T20:05:00.007+08:00

I am a total disappointment and sweet baby jesus i've got a 200 word essay to complete by tonight on why i flunked amath so bad so bad . My A1 for amath turned into a fail grade this term , how ironic . I know it suck much , well at least majority's in this together and i am not alone . mmhmm . The " Zac and cody " twins were soooo much cuter when they were younger . one's fatter than the other now ,hahaah oki i know ima lil random . i just wish i could hang in here a lil longer but nah . i think im gonna start on my essay and then organise my wardrobe before anyone opens it and get squashed by all the things inside . OKay this is why i go mad when people barge in my room cause im afraid of them attempting to open up my closet . we all know , I get paranoid and worried VERY easily . And thats bad ):

2009-05-19T18:36:00.003+08:00

Crashed the house right after the exams , excited for the after mid year activities that we've been long waiting for . Next , Late night swimming ! Wanna join ? ^_^

Our Friday night .

2009-05-16T11:18:00.003+08:00

Study so hard for mid year for what ! " Quality of life ! " hahah

Heart

2009-05-16T00:55:00.002+08:00

i know my jeans is wet , i've got martini spilled on me .

you know i love you so

2009-05-11T14:55:00.003+08:00

It's such a shame for us to part
your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
And you know
You know I love you so

Your 4th anniversary .

you're the star

2009-05-11T14:39:00.004+08:00

Yesterday's brunch was good and i've never seen so many horseys in my entire growth . They're so cute but they stink . i wanna ride on a pony someday ......
k out of point ha ! yesterday was a special day for all mothers . And my sibs and i wanted my mom to be the happiest mom in the universe ! We had a lovely time at spectra after the yummy brunch . *hugs & kisses to mom*

drift

2009-05-08T22:43:00.004+08:00

Should've seen the priceless look on my face when i found out that ..... i found out that my stationaries were missing and the next paper was about to begin . turned to felicia , look around then i realised i've got punk'd . hahahah .

The revised time table sucks , cant wait for next week to pass . Have to endure 3 papers on Friday . Till 4.30 in the afternoon . Hardcore .

berrry hawt day

2009-04-26T00:29:00.009+08:00

17 again was awesomeeeee ! Its a must for me to catch it once more simply because we missed 30 minutes of the show ! hahahahaah

The weather these days ... Flipping hot !! Was at my aunt's place after the movie and god , the weather was really unbearable to the extend where celine had to use the ice pack to cool herself down ! And you can never imagine how sticky my whole body was ! How irritating !!! Imagine walking down orchard road perspiring like mad , having difficulties opening eyes due to sun . ugh . totally hate this , and im perspiring at 2 am in the morning NOW . *UGH EVEN MORE

Guess what ?! I decided to display my new H&M top my beloved sister bought for me and i wore it out without cutting the price tag . guaguagua . so typical me hur !

If you're Jap , Say Haiiiik !

2009-04-26T00:16:00.004+08:00

I tink i really looked like tourist taking pix with esplanade etc etc . Hanging my cam round my neck makes me look even more like a tourist ... uhhh from Japan perhaps ? HAHAH . i kept saying Haiii haiiiik to the both of them . imposter japanese ! OK . You must be wondering why japanese ! becos , 2 years back when i was in Japan , the local people mistook me as one of them and talked to me in Japanese . HAHAH . damn funny ! And i cant believe my classmate , pearlyn actually believed i was Japanese for 3 years . That was meant to be a trick ! god . kill me pls . HAHAHAHAH .

OK . My brain is blank now , so pardon me i know i sound rubbish . really not in the mood for blogging . HAIIIII .

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Have a goodaye mayte !

Fuck you , Fuck you , Fuck you very very much

2009-04-23T18:25:00.004+08:00

memories sey !

Today , Jolly bean and i were talking about the things we could do together after the exams . So excited till we got really loud and i accidently tilt my head and got a pretty good view of this " loving couple " prolly in their fifties very intimidating in macdonalds , and the woman was like " bu yao zhe yang la you xiao hai zi kan ! " WTF HAHAHAHAHAHA .

I AM SO EXCITED I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO SIA JOLLY BEAN HAHAHAHA . *runs around in circles*

2009-04-19T11:19:00.003+08:00

Holding anger is poison because it eats us from inside
Stuck in reverse

Dear journal , Love , me

2009-04-16T21:29:00.005+08:00

Dear journal ,

Today is the day that i cried most and then laughed so hard . I really dont understand myself . I feel pretty much messed up again and its always the same thoughts that keep running in my head . It really sucks to be me . just have to endure few more months and i really want to getaway from this misery business .

XOXO
Love , me

3 more days (:

You found me

2009-04-15T18:46:00.004+08:00

i used to think that im am the luckiest girl on this universe , but come to think of it , no i was wrong . One moment of happiness doesnt mean forever . It just dont last . Just like when you're out you see couples together and the next thing you know they just part and move on with life . Just like best friends , they quarrel and the next thing you know they move on with other group of friends and never coming back to you . Its really a sad thing to say that its human nature i guess . Another sign of human nature is that people tend to gossip / talk about anyone that comes to their mind but to call someone you hardly talk to or you barely know a bitch is way outrageous . I kinda pity these sort of people who speaks without processing in their minds . Of course you can scold someone using bitch for all you want , I DO alot of times too . But calling someone you dont know / your own friend a bitch really really a stupid thing to do rather than " Hey , i dont like you becos you did this , i think we should work things out ... etc etc " . They are jeopardising a friendship . I cant help but to wonder why do people claim they are BFFs but , on the other hand they do things that will hurt each others feelings , they say things they dont mean yada yada ... they just dont know how heavy those 3 words weigh , just like many other 3 words . Be it I miss you , i hate you , or the most commonly used three words , i love you . Just three words can tear a friendship or pull relationships closer . Sometimes i am really afraid i'll drift away from the ones i love , or am i worrying too much ? mmm guess sooooo ...

Thats why i am thankful for what i've got .

i love you .

I miss those good ol times with everyone , laughing at sweet nothings , shedding tears of joy , everyday seems so wonderful to me . I guess its time for a change baby . I really need to reconstruct myself , change the way i am now be it te way i dress , my body language or the way i speak . When im quiet , it just shows that im in deep thoughts , and not tryna be anti-social , sorry !

share the joy

2009-04-11T23:15:00.004+08:00

Thought of sharing some joy with you people ...

3 weeks ago celine showed me a really shocking video of a thai guy dancing in his office . woah i tell you , he dance damn well la !

and just 2 weeks ago Terence showed me a really cute video I SWEAR YOU GOTTA WATCH THIS ITS !! TRUST ME , REALLY WORTH 5.08 MINUTES OF YOUR TIME :D

Maybe another day

2009-04-09T18:47:00.006+08:00

Wow , Singapore's first uni qlo opened and the queue is mad ! Today , the newly opened Uni Qlo's giving special offers etc etc but i bet all the small sizes have already been wiped out by typical singaporeans and from the news on tv , looks like 50% of the shoppers are Old aunties , surprsing ? hahahah . Still i think there'll be limited range of clothes here other country might be better . See ! globalisation may not be that brilliant after all ! have fun Q-ing ya'll while my sis will fly over to HK to purchase them clothes without Q-ing like mad . hohoho

By chance ...

2009-04-07T18:51:00.006+08:00

This week by chance , 2 of my subject teachers told us the same thing . scientifically proven , If one fine day all of the bees go missing , it means , humans lives will be in chaos . And the excess usage of radiation causes bees to not know how to go back to their own beehives . Which means , we should cut down on using mobile phones so that much radiation will not be produced .

it's week 3 of school ! Lessons so far so good , just that last week ah tian was being a lil teeny weeny bit bitchy (pms perhaps ? / menopause) by throwing more than half the class out for not bringing her 10 year series . some lessons are really dry esp geography ! & All i can say is that im so lost in all of the subjects . how i really really wish i did not waste my time in class last year .

P/s : people change over time , even i do .

Run baby run

2009-04-03T20:06:00.006+08:00

This is my sports day @ sp for you , i had fun . Apart from baking in the hot sun , im very very very unequally tanned which sucks la . Lift up my fringe and you'll know what i mean . My PE tcher forced all the girls in my class to participate in captain's ball and i think we had a jolly good time playing against our own classmates 4E2 . As usual i suck at playing ball games well at least , this time no ball landed in between my legs which is great achievement i guess ? hahah . im so drained , just reached home not long and this weekend is gonna be busy like a bumble beeeee . I want to die in bed now and sleep throughout but its flag day tmr . sucks times two .

minutes to midnight

2009-04-02T18:36:00.004+08:00

On a wednesday afternoon ... The sky was really grumpy ...

After having to sit in the car for about 1 and a half hours including turning to the wrong route which says " to kuala lumpur " mom and i finally reached our destination . The roads in Johor are so confusing , they made it in such a way that the signboards and roads dont telly at all which is rather annoying to drivers i bet even local malaysian drivers will be pissed as well . hahah so much for " progressing " Msia into a more organised country like singapore . Met up with my lil six year old cuz (which claims she's only 5 since her bdays' havent pass) from Indonesia . Well , this is my 2nd time seeing her in person so pardon me for the excess photos / vids i took of her . presentingggggg The Ooi family's youngest grandchild cum grandaughter , Amanda Ooi Hui Xin :D sucha cutie pie . The family of 3 came home with us almost at midnight too bad i have school the following day , otherwise i'd be more than happy to bring them around singapore :D now they're back in Johor staying at my aunt's place and will be off to dad's hometown to visit grandpa's grave tmr . RIP grandpup . and yeh hopefully will be able to go to jarkarta and visit them soon , but damn O's holding me back , seriously cock it man !

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" AWWWW love you xin xin "

Dinner on Earth

2009-03-29T21:49:00.005+08:00

" check out celine's ass " cute right ? hahah im the photographer whattttt

Yesterday doesnt seems like it was Earth day . Was woken up by mom's panicky voice " AH BEE AH YOU'RE GONNA BE LATE FOR TUITION IF YOU DONT WAKE UP NOW " . ZzzZZz . after that went with Julz and celine to the saloon for their haircut . And the atmosphere was great becos the other half of the saloon is a cafe with really good food and the cupcakes are so schweeeeeeeeeeeet i couldnt bear to eat them up ! Browsed through shops for Julz wedding dress (hwahahah) , bought some food from the supermarket , prepared dinner , wait for Trish and off for the picnic feast . haha yes at night ! It's Earth day and we sat on earth to have our meal , played with left over sparkles , and ended our day with a late night movie 12 rounds , at Lido .

Managed to get some sleep only at 3am , thats my Earth day for you . what about yours ?

All the way from London

2009-03-29T21:35:00.003+08:00

Birthday is not all about receiving presents , but to feel the love when someone remembers your day :D

bebelated 16th

2009-03-23T19:02:00.013+08:00

started of with a pleasant meal of big breakfast , smoked salmon , italian B.M.T , cupcakes and fruity chewy dark chocos for dessert at demsey's . My plate of smoked salmon reminds me of the-everyday-breakfast-buffet-in-Africa ! damnnnn i miss all my black tutsi & hutu friends hurrrrrhurrrr ... Total madness at Party world , from making alot of noise to the-making-of-MTV-using-fan to being backup dancers . love you all to bits !

Bee Bee's sweet sixteen (terence's cam)

Bee Bee's sweet sixteen (nana's cam)

belated 16th

2009-03-18T16:23:00.007+08:00

" look at the eyes "

Live like you mean it.
Love till you feel it.
Its all that we need in our lives.

16th

2009-03-17T11:47:00.009+08:00

I MISSED BLOGGING ON 16TH MARCHHH URRRRGGGG !!! REALISED THAT ONLY WHEN I WAS IN BED AT FREAKIN 11.58pm . TOO LATE TO EVEN SWITCH ON THE LAPTOP , I GUESS TIME CAN really WAIT FOR NO MAN ! URGGGGGGGGGGGGH . 16th March , the day i've been waiting for saw me being drenched in the heavy rain , brisk walking to bus stop , swearing all the way as plans were ruined thanks to the weather . so then we decided to have a good meal of sushi instead . Spent over an hour eating and eating , love the taste of raw salmon with wasabi shoot up from nose to brain . feels damn shiok . sacrificed not eating cake for this year since im not allowed to cos of my grandfather's death , how depressing huh . I couldnt get to eat my favourite dessert :/ How does it feels , birthday without a cake . AWFUL + depressing ! Afterwhich stay-home-movie with the people who cracks me up always , like always . hahahh at least they made my day less depressing and less awful . Facebook's flooded with "happy birthday in advance " / " happy birthday " / "happy belated birthday " wishes , really sweet of you people to rmb ! It brightens up my day , totally .

Lovers on the 16th

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME !

Back in Taiping

2009-03-15T15:52:00.005+08:00

" MarryBrown Siol , one of the fast food where dad used to stop for us to have our kiddy meals "

" check out the handicap logo at the aeroplane , idky either prolly the pilot's handicapped ? "

satisfied the cravings i had for 4 solid years . all time fav breakfast curry penang laksa , thirty cents (sg currency) nasi lemak (f. dirt cheap) , you tiao , fried beehoon , wanton mee , chee cheong fan , and so many more not forgetting my " gui gui la jiao " that couldnt be found in sg . how could anyone resist eating a table full of local food . In simplier terms , how can i (typical tamjiak girl who loves to try and eat anything - said by jolly bean) resist such heavenly food .

In this state of grief , my knee feels so frickin' sore from all the kneeling on the oh-so-hard-and-rocky-road for days , doing it out of respect for someone so dear at heart i guess all these tears , sores , blistering sun , missing 2 days of lessons , hassle of making our way back , oh and mosquito bites , ... are all worth it . Cos i know someone's watchin' over me . Life's full of bliss and hapiness but how long can it last ? Misery on the other hand causes one's heart to break . Death is one thing that time cannot heal . This is Life , feel so numb and at the same time drained , what can i say ? losing 4 relatives in 4 years , 3 person so important to me so very important people that i'd rather cross the line than to watch them part .

presenting the little town that saw my dad grew up , &where i used to go back so often to visit . Its great to see cousins that i grew up with once again ! This time stayed in the hotel since the house is occupied by the rest ! hahah i remember how i used to hate the toilets in the house becos its frickin' disgusting to me with tiny square mosiac tiles which turned yellow and ohhh the sight of it really irks me and i couldnt bring myself to step on the floor with my bare feet so everytime its a must to wear flip flops to shower . but now , adapted to it already . hahah . i miss all my cuzs so much , dont know how long more do i have to wait to get to see them . Arent you people lucky to have your cousins/relatives living in singapore ? mine are all over the world and i miss them so much . Goodbye is indeed the hardest word to say NOT sorry/iloveyou .

Rest in peace <3

retrace the steps we took

2009-03-10T20:47:00.004+08:00

Its creepy how i can actually forsee what could happen yet nothing has been done . Anyway , prevention is better than having consequences . But all that doesnt matter , anymore ... Just feeling numb but not in a melancholy state , not yet ! At least , i could use this chance to take a break . approximately half hour drive to causeway (without jam) 1 hours flight from sina airport , 1 to 2 hours drive back . The thought of travelling back is rather nerve-wracking to me uh-huh .

Be Back Just In Time For The 16th ... hopefully

deep

2009-03-09T17:51:00.004+08:00

SIA LAH . took the same chinese paper 2 and result's exactly the same as Jolly Bean . So much for " woah you very clever sia , you can write while holding a pencil with the same hand " . hahahhahaha .

I dont intend to take the jc route hahah very " wise " of me to choose this combination 2 years back and now i am struggling with both sciences and amath a lil(since i know nothing bout' differentiation/kinematics/changing of rate bullshit) hahah . Wasted , for those that wanna get into this class for jc but couldnt .

so yeah was just telling Celine yesterday , Have you ever wondered why professional models do not smile for their photoshoot ? Think .

And even when they arent smiling , they still look gorgeous . ya how i wish i was born like that . hahaahaha

vicious cycle

2009-03-06T23:38:00.006+08:00

Just wish the routine of waking up later in the morning for school keeps going on ! i havent slept for 8 hours for the longest time already ! freakin common test , they just have to put 3 papers (geog emath Physics) on the same day . This is the month of March . exciting no ? look forward to the one week's break , i soooo wish that we dont have to come back for supp class on monday heh heh heh * cross fingers * not like anyone would care but still i hoppeeee this day will not be screwed up by freaking remedials .

hahah yes back to basics , i look like 2 years back , only difference perhaps was a little rounder i guess ? haha !

MT O's coming up , i better communicate more using chinese ! okay just kidding even the noodle ah boy laughed me when i speak chinese . i still cant believe my eyess when i look at the calender its freaking MARCH . i guess time can wait for no man , man . time to pull my socks up = no Guitar Hero. bwahabwahbahwbah

insomnia

2009-02-19T19:14:00.005+08:00

its already mid feb and i smell the danger of knowing nothing about phy , lets just say the one and only chapter that i can understand is vernier calipers . should've taken bio instead ! put aside all my nightmares , i have a date tomorrow with my favourite girl , havent been catching up with her lately .

Being me some love

2009-02-17T21:28:00.006+08:00

chillax at the firestation , want some hoegarden anybody ?

hahahahhaha i love youuuuuuu two !

This was on Sunday , attended some recital thing by satsuki which is celine's client's wife . impressive voice indeed . love those cute cute kawaii nehzxc jap kids !

Valentines day

2009-02-16T21:48:00.004+08:00

playback flashback rewind valentines day , did you feel loved like i did ? can someone screw the guitar hero pls its screwing up my life up , like totally . addiction .

completed my chinese compo for god's sake . im going to bed now .

2009-02-01T12:16:00.002+08:00

Guitar hero with the double chins baybehhh . hwahahahah . love you !

JB

2009-01-27T21:15:00.005+08:00

spent my new year's eve at jb with cousins i havent met for months . its a pity cant get a chance to visit my grandfather .

Happy Niu year !

2009-01-24T23:55:00.005+08:00

i look horrible , watery restless eyes . aahha .
watch this !

hahahhaha i find " tuts my barreh " damn funny , dont you think so too ?

look at my tired face , boo . waking up early in the morn for JayBee . hah havent been back to msia for the longest time already ! hope to get some cny mood !

Gong xi fa cai happy Niu Year . mwah mwah mwah !

happy mood

2009-01-15T18:25:00.006+08:00

Is 2009 treating you alright ? so far so good for me ! cca fair last fri was crazii , there isnt anyone helping out in the dance booth then J and i decided to play our part since we aren't performing for sec 1 orientation .

oh yes . Uncle , Aunt and Tina were here for 6 days now back safely in their hometown . wonders of technology within 14 hours and they're on the other side of the globe ! didnt get the chance to spend much time with them / do wakeboarding / shopping which is a pity . but no im not complaining , becos i've got more impt tasks to worry about this year ! the big O's to deal with , just cannt wait for it to come baybeh .

guess what ? i've made up my target for O's that is to get 9 points which is damn impossible i know . but i'll try ok ok ok ? 9 points no kidding . no joke . im serious . excluding cca cut off points . haha . aiya , totally regretted for not paying attention in class last year how i wish to go back to the honeymoon year ! )':

First day back in hell

2009-01-02T18:50:00.004+08:00

First day of school expected to be slack as usual , this year the sch made a really big change in almost everything . CCA 3 times per week , i bet there'll be lots of supp classes and sch activites plus my tuition . damn , at this rate , i wont have anytime for rest at all ! and its pretty scary how time flies , soon it'll be MT O level and When Term 3 starts thats when all the pressure comes . Guess what ? im still in my holiday mood ): well not only me , i bet you too feel this way right ? you know what i mean . okay last year was really great . i wish time will stop at that moment remain stagnant but NO . k im really tired on the first day of sch after my cca too . 帶我走 kou yi mar ?

kick a brand new start !

2008-12-31T23:39:00.002+08:00

using this last opportunity to sum up for the year 2008 !

today is the last day of 2008 im feeling rotten just like last year's new year eve . last year i spend my day at the zoo came home feeling really sick and couldnt get out of bed until the last 30seconds of 2007 NOW TODAY AT THIS MOMENT I FEEL ALL HOT AND FEVERISH AGAIN , oh why must i get tortured on this new year's eve AGAIN ? its like a curse . few more minutes to 2009 god , why am i always having a bad start on the first day of a new year ! OR its becos i've been treated so well this year that i have to undergo such pain now ! if so then i dont blame god for that ! becos i really really am one lucky girl already . couldnt ask for anything more ! (:

Now i am lil more wiser , confident im not afraid of being alone ! i've finally overcome the fear of being alone and being self cautious . Look at how i've grown within a year !

Not forgetting , new resolutions the kick a brand new start of the year ! that is to be more attentive in class , stop singing during free periods , stop spending $$ on clothes , start saving $$ to travel round the universe , be a good daughter , be wiser , be more intelligent , stop irritating my fellow classmates , stop whining to them how much i hate physics and how much i suck being me . Trust me you wouldnt want to be me . (: And so much more i cannot think of becos my headache is killing me URGGGGGGGGGG !

ahh my favourite animal the buffalo becos of their character make me very impressed ! and LOOK AT ITS CENTRE PARTING LIKE MINE HAHAHAHA !

HAPPY NEW YEAR FOLKS !

huuu huuu

2008-12-31T18:15:00.004+08:00

yesterday

night out at orchard party world ! Celine nana and i were having so much fun when juju sang " get high " making fun of one of their friend . inside joke . oh and not forgetting making fun of fei lun hai " chao xi huan ni " hah damn hilarious ! sorry but i just couldnt help it ! :P

(more pictures)

K

2008-12-31T12:09:00.003+08:00

Monday , 29th december

Look at all the pictures carefully , jio jio is holding the mike la ! hahah vain pot !

kick some asses

2008-12-27T21:22:00.006+08:00

Yesterday

Haji is a total bore as usual its just a photo copy of harajuku , okay maybe not becos Haji lane is far from harajuku like 0.00001% similarities . hunniebobo and i went to treat ourselves a yummy chocolate cake @ coffee bean . we were fighting for the chocolate likee crazy ! hahah then went on our seperate ways me to vivo to meet up with my sissy and all . buying clothes worth of $600 ++ @ topshop itself . how amazing girls we are ! hah !

christmas eve

2008-12-24T23:55:00.006+08:00

oh Christmas eve was well spent with hunniebobo and the fam ! mom made delicious pork chop and my fav corn soup i've been long craving for since Africa ! been spamming her hotmail bugging her to cook corn soup for me when i get back from afica and she really did it ! how sweet of her ! my mom offered J some Mango Vodka and look what happened to J !! OH JUST LOOK AT HER BLOOD SHOT EYES ! HAHAHA ! so now you know how jolie looks like after very tiny weeny bit of alcohol and the best part is THE VODKA ISNT NID AT ALL . HAHAHAH .

im stil jet lag , or maybe i just refused to face reality , to face the fact that im back and still refused to change the luxrious lifestyle i had for the past 10 days . Im so stressed and fed up with some stuffs here , i think i need another get away holiday . somewhere further somewhere out there on another side of the globe . For Now , Gotta say Buh byee to Africa or i'll never move on and get back to the life i used to lead cos right now im way behind singapore's timing . never ending school+tuition homeworks , rotting at home , taiwanese dramas , little nyonya , singapore food , the cycle comes back all over again . one more thought about africa and im gonna slap my own face real hard .

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ITS 2.40 AM NOW IM SUPPOSED TO BE IN BED AN HOUR AGO BUT IM JUST BEING AN ANNOYING LITTLE XUCKING BRAT ! NO MORE JET LAG PLEASEEEE . before i really go off , can someone please give me a sleeping pill for the love of god ?

Africa

2008-12-23T17:53:00.006+08:00

I Must say after experiencing a whole new culture was indeed a great opportunity and i guess i have to put a fullstop to this wonderful chapter of my life . Being away from home learning to be a little more independent and confident travelling on my own . I was in heaven , staying in hotels XXXX PER NIGHT , eating good food drinking expendsive wine bubble bath looking at wild life and marine life enjoying myself oh what more could i ask for ? Now im back to good ol days , which is Hell . i miss cape town , johannesburg , george and sabi sabi so much i could crumble down and cry any moment now !

ON MY WAY HOMIE TO SINGAPORE TOWN ....

im just so unlucky to sit beside a woman who snores and even dropped her chips in my sneakers ! urgggh . watched about 4-5 movies couldnt sleep and when i finally get into my sleeping mood the steward called me to join the rest in the business class . i've never sat business class in my entire life not even once , ima country bumpkin you see hahah . although its only twice and both times were for the landing but its just so awesome la thanks to my uncle and aunt .

"sneak a peek , one of my fav animal teh leopard "

been eating lobster , mussels , crayfish , otritch , sharks , antholopes , kudo or impala , awesome meats you dont usually get in sg ! EXOTIC !! okay my brain is soo sooo blank now , gotta face the fact that school's gonna re-open soon . so much to do , so little time ! urggggh . next year will be hell for me . but hey , i already planned what i'll be doing after O's im so gonna ________ and ________ and ______ and
______ with _____ and MOREEEE ! AHAHAHHAHA *smiles to self*

i dont know how to express how much i love my uncle and aunt and how much i appreciate when they shower me with all their love & luxury in life , man this is so mushy but i really know that they treat me very well like their own daughter :D

P/S : pictures another time , having a major jet lag now . guess what , my imflammation disease is back ):

A MUST WATCH WILD DOGS VERSUS IMPALA - THE KILL (listen to the cracking bones)

AWESOME , YOU SHOULD WATCH IT LIVE DAMN ENTERTAINING BUT SMELLS AWFUL THOUGH .

one more night

2008-12-22T00:47:00.003+08:00

spending my last night in Africa , damn heartbreaking i love the people here they're so black that they shine and blind my damn eyes . saw zebra skins almost every corner in africa , totally tempted to bring one home ! ahahah . pictures ? wait till i get back cos i have like XXXX pictures and vids to upload . some in my cuz's cam too .

zebra for juju - check
elephant for nana - check
cubs for mallie - check
african penguins for teck joker - check
monkeys for felicia (teck chin told me) - check
i tried looking for xiongs for guoxiong but too bad dont have ! hah
big macho hawt and sexy chocolate african man for my hunniebobo - CHECK !

(Escape to Africa part three)

leading hotels

2008-12-18T23:49:00.003+08:00

Suncity , the palace hotel lobby no one is allowed to go in unless you stay in this hotel , they made it so grand that you have to pay $$ to tour round the hotel . how cool is that ?! haha .

" Pezula hotel , the bed is damn comfy ! "
by the way , children under the age of 15 is not allowed to enter pezula's fine dining . that shows how posh it is ! man the beef is damn good (:

its 10 minutes to 6 now ! the people , the weather and everything here is just so great that i've decided to spend the rest of my life here and never gonna come back ! aha how i wish ! spending the night in one of the world's best leading hotel pezula in george . the view of the golf course from the window is pictureque ! damn amazing , having seafood for dinner soon ! I AM SO GONNA EAT LIKE AN ELEPHANT ! been sick starting of this trip im perfect now WAHAHAHA just spokeN to mom and hunniebobo , congrats for your N level results !

(Escape to Africa part two)

the wild life

2008-12-15T18:35:00.005+08:00

DAY ONE Friday , 12th december

Meet my new friend , john ! HAHA

First night in joannesburg , 10 bombas (cheapest hotel for this trip but still so nice you cant get this standard in sg for a good reasonable price !)

DAY TWO Saturday ,13th december

this is a super mini plane just to get into sabi sabi , kruger national park where all the wild animals are in simplier terms a plane that lands in the jungle .

land rover for transport

Spend my 2nd night in sabi sabi , Earth Lodge (i have a private pool outside my hotel room)

dinner time freakin' cold at night !

DAY THREE Sunday , 14th december

still in kruger national park hunting for the wild life !

3rd night still in kruger , Selati camp lodge

DAY FOUR Monday , 15th december

spending my 4th night and last night in kruger @ bush lodge !

3 days in Africa was certainly fantastic , the safari was great . looking at wild dogs killing impala ripping them alive was totaly awesome . seen giraffes and the leopard was about 2 metres away from my jeep . fucking great to see . heading for lunch soon , guess you guys are gonna have dinner becos of the time difference ! alrighty ! gonna take a power nap to kick some lions asses in a few hours time .

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spot the well hidden lion in the bush on the last day in kruger national park !

Gotta catch the plane back to joannesburg then drive to SUNCITY !

" this is elephant's shit ! haha all cute and round like ice cream ! "

" this is how it feels sitting in the land rover "

P/S : here are just a few pix more to come in next post , wont be uploading everything in my cam but these pictures are good enuff for you to know how great Africa is !

(Escape to Africa part One)

Escaping to Africa

2008-12-11T17:25:00.002+08:00

When i Come back im gonna give you the Stephanie Escape to Africa Version instead of the madagascaaaaaar . i can already picture myself in the air craft feeling all scared worried and helpless without any kin by my side . i wonder what kind of stranger is sitting next to me tmr (in a few hours to be exact !) boarding the plane all by myself yeah . i cant even stand travelling in the mrt alone how can i stand taking 10 over hours of flight alone . hope everything goes smoothly for me . 10 days and i'll be back just in time for christmas ! hwahaahahhaha .

Gotta run for last min packing , my mom is bugging me like crazy becos she's not gonna be there with me you see . meeting sis @ vivo for dinner then to aunt's house and off to air port ! 2 Am flight . damn . 2 am is my supper time . miss you all !

Africa , Jungle , lions , zebras , giraffes come to me baybeh .

vague

2008-12-10T20:44:00.010+08:00

sitting waiting watching .

feelin' the christmassy mood , the plan for today was kinda ruin it sucks being stucked in between . overall was not too bad coming home knowing that i'll be able fly to the otherside of the globe .

<3

2008-12-09T00:46:00.003+08:00

okay so the air ticket aint a problem , now for the embassy and hotel . i'll only know tomorrow , i guess those who are close to me knows what im talking about ! hahahaha . so PRAY HARD if you dont want me to go ! hahahaha . i wont feel sad even if i might not have the chance to go not even one bit , although its like once in a lifetime chance . let fate decide ! hwahahaha . k moving on . keep my fingers cross hope sterling pounds drop to 2.3 please for god's sake . topshop pissing me off . urggg . damn .

im eating mac for supper . sinful . must kick this bad habit of eating supper !

blog about this soonzxc bye !

labels of love

2008-12-06T20:20:00.007+08:00

Quickie dee quick updateeee . im kinda busy this week , next week schedule's packed as well . but im not complaining ! i'd rather be busy busy as a beee than to rot myself to death . guess what ! school's starting really really soon . im not making use of my vacation not to the fullest yet ! ahhaha . excited to go back to school next year thou ! VERY !! nah not very actually , i hate to face the white board and complicated math equations and without our beloved form tcher Ms tan next year , idk what will the class be .

Closer together

2008-12-04T21:19:00.011+08:00

Sunday , 30th november

roller blading plan was screwed up due to damn passing clouds , went to east coast just to have chicken wings then off to somewhere more exciting with the cousins , sisssy , mom and Juju .... haji lane flea market . next stop ! Cold Rock for some yummy
bubble gum + marshmellow + gummy bear bearszxc + m&ms ice cream !

Tuesday , 2nd december

(Vonneys 3E2)

last minute decided to have another class gathering since the first outing was a failure ? only 12 people turned up and this time was a sucess ! Thank you baby vonneys for helping me out with the food / carrying stuffs / buying food / coming . love you all babyzxc vonneys ! Love ms Tan toozxc !

Vonney class gathering 1

2008-11-29T02:08:00.004+08:00

Vonney class gathering 1 was a failure . too rush . many people cannot make it including ms tan ! but we had fun at east coast park cycling and exercising ! then wenta get trouble's birthday present . tired . lastly , i love them all laaaaa :D

i look damn untidy but idc ! not supposed to look nice when exercising ! :D

pirate ship , damn exciting never expect it to be so high ! look at their happy faces HAHAHA ! damn shiok la the feeling . HAHA .

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on stephanie : feodora hat from topman , necklace from swarovski , tank top from uni qlo japan (uni qlo coming to sg in 2009 rejoyce !) , skirt from bangkok , stockings from topshop , pumps from m'sia (:

i cant stand me nowadays . when the clock strikes 2 am my stomach will automatically growl and its as thou all the food i ate earlier in the day have digested completely leaving an empty and noisy stomach . i hate to face the fact that i am eating supper and gaining weight . thus , going over to east coast park almost every weekend for a healthy roller blading lifestyle , i guess didnt really work . cos all i do lately is sleep late wake up late and my meals are xucking irregular . come to think of it , ive havent had breakfast for the longest time ! cos when i wake up late , my breakfast will become lunch . and then i'll usually get hhungery again later in the night say , eight pm ? and after dinner never fails to eat junk food plus sharing tiger with mom . not healthy not healthy at all . urggg its growling now ! fucking shit . im gonna exercise more and not be glued to this screen its hurting my damn eyes and my degree is getting higher & higher . oh god must bless me . update abt my day soon . bye

sweetest gift ever

2008-11-28T23:18:00.019+08:00

all time fav fort canning on a friday noon . picnic . yummy filled with love cookies . laughters . tears of joy . shopping . cracking up jokes . being approached by weirdo passer bys / chased by strangers . acting like tourists . being mistaken as foreigners which is more than , say XXXXXXX times (me - jap/korean) (jo - indo malay / phillipino) . also , <3 to <3 talks with none other than hunniebobo the breast breastie so far that knows me inside out , outside in . hwahahahah .

(Gimme Gimme Moarzxcst)

All i want for christmas is youuuuu !

my house christmas tree not bad eh ? HAHA ! momsie's creation !

zawoo's birthday

2008-11-28T00:05:00.013+08:00

Monday was Zawoo's birthday . Marina Sq to catch Madagascar 2 . it was freezing cold in the theatre i almost turned into an ice block if it werent for Vinia's shawl . esplanade for smashin cake and cute yummie cupcake session walked to lau pa sat for some satays damnnnn fattening plus i had a mouthful of stingray ordered by traris !

Happy birthday ! (:

happening weekend

2008-11-25T20:37:00.012+08:00

Saturday had lunch @ Paragon went for flea market walked to bugis's topshop went home ate at rail mall finally toooooooo

NIGHT SAFARI . NO FLASH NO FLASH NO FLASH IS ALLOWED !

i enjoyed the animal show cox the host was very entertaining and she mistook US AS KOREANS ? WTF ? and she made fun of my flower light stick in front of the crowd of audience soooo embarassing :/ guess im always attracting people's attention hur . night trail was fun but creepii they made me walk first as the bats are flying all over ! the leopard is damn sexxii la but was too dark to take picture of it . soooooooo moral of the story you must spend $$$ to go to safari to see those cute lil wild animals .

here are some of my fav pix crickzxc on the link for more more photos ! awww , i love FB it lightens my burden of posting pichas in breakyourlungs !

Night safari part 1

Night safari part 2

Night safari part 3 + sunday roller blading

SIGNING OFF ,

XOXO

Jungle friday

2008-11-21T14:11:00.008+08:00

This is how i spent my Fridey with hunniebobo

it was crazii how we messed up my room with our clips/bows/necklaces/bracelets . we even cut some necklaces and made them into bracelets HAHA ! shouldve seen my room that moment like a jungle !

I've manii manii dramas to catch up ! im catching up on 3 shows now ! yang cheng lin's drama will be showing on sg's telly next month huhooh ! gonna watch it again cox its damn hilarious cant wait for her next drama superstar express that'll be coming out in 2009 ! k i must complete my shows before school starts . man , the thought of next year's o level just make me wanna dieee . my tuition tcher said next year's o level will start on the 10th of oktobah THATS LIKE 6 DAYS EARLIER THAN THIS YEAR'S BATCH ! not fair siolzxc ):

What a feeling !

2008-11-18T14:42:00.019+08:00

Monday 17th october

woke up with a terrible pain the burning sensation of my wounds is so bloody hurting me like crazii . and the wounds are fugly esp on my face ! i bet no one wants to be friends with me now ): i am worst than ugly betty ):

17th october also Prom hi-tea for graduating students ! me being miss independent (becox i took the subway alone for the 1st time) went down to cine to meet hunniebobo ! k finally visted K-box after so many years cos always been going to party world . hunniebobo and i had the whole room to ourselves . the rest were near ours . had funzxc people kept coming into our room and we saw many familiar faces at the pathway it was as though we're in school but different rooms haha . each and everyone of them are dressed up so beautifully while im dressed damn slack i couldnt be bothered even though the colour is totally off esp the pumps nyways i always get bitten by all my shoes i'd rather wear smth comfortable and with my face like that no matter how nice my clothes are , im still fugly .

(crickzx here for moar)

excuse me for my poses ! im just trying to cover up my wound on my chin ^_^
OH OH and i happen to saw them @ kbox they were having some fans event thing . scroll down down down !

Thanks to weiling for taking the pictures ! she did her bestest alr using my lousy camera its blurry cox flash were not allowed baybeh .

This is wu zun , i was staring hard at aaron trying to take a good look at him thennnnn wu zun waved so i waved back lor if not very rude right ? haha !

Calvin the sunshine boy siolzxc . HAHAHHAHA . he sed HI TO ME . my heart meltzxc siolzxc becos im not even his fan and yet he's so friendly . he looks good when he's botak . no wang dong cheng though )':

east coast park - Zoukkk

2008-11-16T22:57:00.005+08:00

Its pretty fun taking your sunday off to exercise , celine taught me how to roller blade cox she's damn good at it i must say ! she's so fast that she can compete with a car ! i get distracted very easily , there was this angmoh taking photography of me when i was roller blading . idky also !! everything was fun , except the part that i had to fall and disfigure every part of my body ): damn embarassing . hurts like crazy !! but i guess if you never fall you'll never know how to blade . okok to sum everything up , its damn FUN la i wanna go roller blade soon ! but i hope i dont fall again !

nexttt stop Zouk . its a total disappointment ! huahua .

my cuzz trina , 12 years of age gap ! haha .

Trina and Juleana also known as nana and juju !

Full of injuries . im disfigured ):

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just when i just got the hang of my blades , i fell down flat on my face and i got this terrible scratch on my chin plus my shoulder and knee cap are bleeding like mad . &The first thing i said after my fall was " Is my face disfigured ? " . I feel sad so sad sooo sad sad . im like so ugly and now im even uglier X10 . i dont even feel like facing the world now ): im afraid of scars ): i have too many already i wouldnt want to add up to my collection . just hope it heals asap !! but if you think im gonna hide myself behind the screen all day long then you're wrong ! haha . i dont care if i look ugly ! nyway who would want to notice such an ugly girl like me , you tell me . hahaha . cant wait for the next roller blading ! or perhaps during class outing ? im just waiting to be tagged in facebook for pictures . wait . if you wanna see my deep cuts all over my body ! huahuahua .

offzxc tuu put medication . i hope my hunniebobo wins prom queen or smth huahuahua ! i bet she's gonna be the prettiest prettiest girl of all tomorrow !

I Love You .

Just a quick update

2008-11-14T18:48:00.004+08:00

Finally a day off resting @ home . becos previous days been really drained and tired with my cca and slacking aimlessly at interchange with hunniebobo like some typical ite guys waiting for some chiobu to appear to get their number . when the time was up boarded the glendale bus tried to climb over the wall to get over to our condo however there was a cleaner . no choice get out from main gate even though the security was giving us the what the fuckzxc 2 school gerls with retardation holding a blardy huge & fugly red plus blue umbrella ridiculous stare . we got frightened , ran away with fear . boy , that was hilarious couldnt stop laughing along the way home .

now off to play with numbers . im glad to have my 100 buxx per session tuition tmr to keep my rusty brain working grrr ... 太烦恼

烦恼谁都不明了
烦恼烦恼太烦恼的苦恼

boring day @ town

2008-11-12T20:59:00.007+08:00

town with the hunniebobo . we couldnt help ranting to each other about the horrible muscle aches on our tighs esp whn walking up/down stairs . CAN YOU FEEL OUR PAIN ?!?!must be doing too many splits in dance the previous days . first stop to fareast followed by bugis . it was raining kitties and bunnys man . bought a drink tokzxc crapzxc in the mall . never fails to crackzxc me up , that girl . got a top @ 10 bucks which was dirt cheap . took a pweetie long time deciding curze im afraid i'll abandon it like what i did to my other clothes even though they're not even dirt cheap . huahuahua . oh yessss ! its amaaahzing for once we didnt take many fotos . thumbs up .

i cant stop laughing at this picture . huahuahua

back tu skool tmr siolzxc . what a chore . im so drained .

Happy birthdays !

2008-11-11T16:23:00.006+08:00

initially wanted to blog on the 10th november but was kinda busy that day !
- dance in the morning
- Trarises birthday celebration

settled @ bugis to have steamboat for dinner cum lunch for me . i was starving like mad but apparently my stomach could only take in like prolly 1/12 of alpin's . Thanks to Traris for the delicious meal . ended up having indigestion hahaha ): weakling la . from bugis to peninsula to esplanade to batok to ma spookii haus but was oki i guess cox sister wong walked me thru the terribly creepii route (if you know where i live) . reason being over paranoid becos my brotha got cornered by 3 indian robbers , threatening him with a huge knife along that path . so that explains my fear , so im very thankful if someone is willing to acc me homeee ! they're like the sweetest thing ever (: k nuff man . lazy to upload everything in breakyourlungs so i guess you can view it in facebook instead ! huahuahua .

MOAR @

anywayzxc before i go ,

HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY Traris !
HAPPY 24th BIRTHDAY Juleana !
HAPPY 26th & 30th BIRTHDAY TO MY COUSINS alvin & tricia !
HAPPY 59th BIRTHDAY TO Uncle !

so many people's birthday falls on 10th november hur ? (:

Chillax with the ladies

2008-11-09T21:13:00.013+08:00

A Chillax sunday @ Rochester Park with Celine , Trina , Tricia , Juleana and Mommie . first stop , had pizza for lunch salami , mushroom & ham , yum yumm followed by desserts down the street , they're fantastic ! just look at the mouthwatering picchas and the place is beautiful , we even saw a couple taking wedding photos . awww (:

moar @ facebook (:

Twelve + one (:

dine in @ dozo restaurant

2008-11-09T01:25:00.016+08:00

8th november

Uncle's 59th birthday celeb in advance @ Dozo restaurant (: very grand becos he even hired the same singer that sang for my cuz's wedding last december . he booked 3 tables with 50-60 over people attending it ? sounds like wedding uh ? anyhows , wasnt my first time to Dozo , food's nice but i still loathe eating foie gras , awful ! champagne was good . as you can see the food is damn nice la (:

Cousins !

save me

2008-11-07T17:16:00.004+08:00

went for dance + spent time with hunniebobo ytd . finally . dance wasnt as bad as i thought it would be . I hope , the decision for joining syf is not a mistake aft mrs low talked to me . i didnt know Mrs Low would look at my arms , she thought i abused myself . she even pulled my uniform up to check for any injuries . wtf . HAHAHAHA .

everybody around me seems to have ____ problems too . ahhh . damnit . this sucks . i suck . & i cant stand myself im such a fugly creature . im just an eyesore to everybody . my <3 is hurt . im stalking nonsense again . damnit . im hungery .

i miss this . i wish i can gobble it up and make my tummy bloadted like FLABBY FLABBIE . haha k .

was called back to school @ night to help the people who're involved in the robotics competition . fei and i helped out , well , Mr Pan and Mr choo were thankful for us ! of course la ! WE BURN MIDNIGHT OIL IN SCHOOL LA just to help them . even went home after midnight man . and hillgrove is really spooky @ night .

presenting Mr choo's chio lorry . HAHAH LIKE BANGALAHS in lorry :X

lastly ,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY ! RIP :D

Goodbye sec 3

2008-11-05T23:49:00.010+08:00

Wednesday , 5th october

last day of sch &about half of the class didnt turn up for S.S on purpose ? & Ms Tan's not our form tcher anymore , she's leaving ): gonna have a new math tcher i hope i dont flunk math ! went to westmall like 3 times today ? helped Mr Pan bought dinner and then came back to school . helped out in the robotics competition thing (watch video below) & stayed in school till late . so creepy la ! Fei & T had to send me home becos my house is even creepier X30293823 @ nightzxc ! they even made sure i reached the guardhouse safely then U-turn back , so sweet right ? TY !

MOAR PICTURES @ FACEBOOK THANK YOU ! :D

I <3 3E2 !!! VONNEY !

<3 MS tan !

CREEPY OR NOT ? the whole school is like damn dark , and there's Mr Pan and 7 students only . oh btw look at my eyes ! one big one small o.O huahuahua .

okay so sec 3 is the honeymoon period and it ended just like that ! awww ): Next year will be very very different . haha i think i should just end it with one sentence because i can go on and on talking about how much i'll miss sec 3 life and i'll bore you to death man .

I <3 3E2 !! huhooh !

<3 is Blind

2008-11-03T18:37:00.017+08:00

sunday , 2nd november

Juleana

celine

stephanie

mommie

went to Waraku @ heeren to have a birthday dinner with sissy juleana and mommie ! shopped around , i find it boring to shop with my mother and sister ,it must be the age gap i guess ? 10 years difference ? Working clothes are sucha bore to me , Tiffany & co , Coach , Fendi , Zara not too bad though . they're thinking to get another coach clutch ? SUI ?

i think my sister is gonna build her great wall of china . sriously man within a year she bought Longchamp , Gucci , Prada , Christian Dior and they're all big handbags , you know how bloody much they can cost ! hahaha .

Monday , 3rd October

Help 3 is sucha bore , i cant absorb anything i suck ): my classmates cracks me up . hahahahah . <3 them .

as always , trying to have a new look . hahaha

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BELOVED SISSY !

dont club and drink so much , not healthy (:

if you're wondering why is she dressed up as a skeleton , its becos of halloween !

i <3 Spice girls , classic seh ! :D i find their lyrics very meaningful ! okay maybe not very but still some are quite meaningful X)Love is Blind .

because i suck .

2008-10-29T16:31:00.006+08:00

never did i expect you to have left such a touching tag in my guestbook (which is private) . it totally made my day , i was so touched im loss of words . really . You know what ? i dont hate you neither do i dislike you at all , nobody wanted him to die on that day . I can only use one word to describe myself in the past , childish . i dont blame you for not having to see his last face or breath . c'mon i was only 12 back then , still young and still a shallow person . All i ever wanted that moment was to turn back time . Anywayzxcst , You've been a great bestfriend and a great playmate to me too even though we went through shitloads of misunderstandings haha (somehow i do miss those carefree yet childish times with you )

Don't be so pessimistic too ok, do it for your family Your mom who tries to live on for the family ( im sure ) and ur sister who tries to support the family

and yes , i'll look on the bright side of life i have a super mom , a egoistic brother cos i die die know he cares for me just that he appears not to be and a sister who dotes on me . nevertheless , great uncles and aunties who have been giving me all the luxury in life . also , friends who cares for me / love me(idk who ? prolly none also i guess haha) , new friends that i've made in secondary school (1E1 2E1 3E2 ABC i love them all lah ) , and i have the bestest girlfriend in the world JIO JIO TENG LI LI

you see , i dont want people to portray me as a depressed emotional fatherless kid . no harm to envy people who have a happy family right ? i mean , even if they're not happy , at least their fathers would be able to watch them grow , know how much they have scored for their O levels and see them get married in the future but me ? my father didnt even see me getting my PSLE results or watch my siblings graduate from poly/uni . even though steven may not be around anymore , he'll always be the hero in my heart .

i love you , very very much .

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physic's spa was a total bitch . the standard was totally different from chem . i suck . i didnt draw my graph , i did the wrong steps & i took 3 readings only . i was stucked , and the lab was goddamn hot everyone looks sweaty . anywayzxcst its over and done with , it only takes 5% of my o level , i have 2 more pracs to go next year . God Bless ME . amen .

sometimes i feel like the world is gonna crumble and fall on me ... because ..because i suckkk . im not a good daughhhter , not a good friend , not a good lover . i suck . i suck . i suck . i suck . i suck . i suck . i suck . i suck . i suck so much , that i could just bleed and die . its hard trying to forget some stuffs . it do hurt me alot . well i guess some things are better left unsaid . the fear of trusting certain people ... ): what kind of world is this man .

i do noticed that people portray me as a girl who always laughs , laugh with jio jio esp , and it made people mistook us for laughing at them idky it happened countless times . im always a listening ear to my friends and always give advices to them yet i couldnt help myself . i suck . And , after all the bullshit i've been going thru , im almost immune to my screwed up life already . dont ask why so its because i've told you , i suck .

im trying hard not to blog about misery , but i still did . im sucha loser . i suck .

listen to good music , listen to trance . Freee my mind because i suck

goodbye and goodnight .

School Trip to malaysia

2008-10-25T01:14:00.027+08:00

One day trip to JB Kukup for educational purposes which was organised by the science department , students had to find PH values of certain things eg soil . Not only that , we get to visit some workshop that moulds metal into things , (and i even thought the little girl in the display cabinet was a doll because she is too chubby and have no expression on her face! ) , the pineapple museum / pineapple farm (which was really DIRTY&MUDDY) , Fishy farm (where we walked on unstable planks) , SEAFOOD LUNCH WHICH WAS BEST BEST BEST (3E2 did not waste any food ! yao guis !), Durian farm (got bitten by many mosquitoes) , LASTLY JUSCO shopping mall for about 3 hours !

about XXX photos :D sorry if i didnt upload it here ! get it in my facebook :D

our second stop ! becos before this we had breakfast , but i only drank hot milo because i was having flu la ... ):

fei fei and me

some adult taking a picture of me i forgot who also , nehmai! hahaha !

that thing weighs alot !

it is really heavy !

Bestiezxcst

Fei fei

pineapple museum . so cutezxcst

we stood there and 3 tchers were taking our photo , didnt know which cam to look at i hope they dont print out my photo !

fei fei and xinying

xinying me fei fei and rayna

fei fei , me and rayna

ms quek !

so cutezxcst

scrub to get threads .

mrs chua and the muddy pineapple field

HAHHA jokers la alpin & Zhilin

felicia !

me , fid , and khaliesah

mallie and me

walking to the boat

welcome to fishy farm ! we have to walked on dangerous and unstable wooden planks .

Group 4 , me is photographer

meee X)

the durian farm , cute seh the mickey . but i didnt take with minnie cos it was drizzling also and awkward la .

took very lil pix here nth interesting just plants and fruits

mallieee

Jusco's ToyRus , haha jiggly puff

i was sick , i couldnt taste any sour-ness in the strawberry ice cream , the rest did ! aiyaa then im like a rubbish bin i ate up most of the strawberry . hurhur !

This is indeed an enjoyable experience filled with love , fun and laughters . AGREE ?

Why was this trip filled with love ? AWWWWW

why was this trip filled with fun ?

ABC :D

& why was this trip filled with laughters ?

a little video to end this post to show the hillgrove spirits :D huhooh !

We sang all the way during the bus rides even in the night when we're heading back to school , i wonder how 3/4 of my classmates could continue to sleep becos the guys kept singing with their Chipmunk voices . HAHA :X

This is not all yet , there's more in me FACEBOOK ! if you're not in my friend's list , add if you wanna view pictorszxcst .

I LOVE YOUUUUUUUU 3E2

2008-10-22T21:49:00.006+08:00

i was just looking at sistic website and i just saw an advert on telly .
i could just bleed and die now from all the excitement . hee .

oh and yes ! i cantttttt wait for 7th november ! best la . thats when rainie yang's 4th album is out plus its the last day of jo's work and by then im done with help 3 ! huhooh ! This calls for a celebration and that is my Precious Dad's birthday as well , how could i ever forget !

just bear with it for a few weeks JIO JIO , then i'll really get to enjoy my break even though im already having the holiday mood right now . we could go swimming @ some unknown condos and shower tgt after our swim , we could go anywhere and i would like to put on make-up on your damn triple eyelid eyes and i would like to torture your stupid dog name , le le / ke le / chloe or whatever shit name you call it .

goodbye for now , im off , off to fantasize about chuuuu .

happy birthday mommy

2008-10-22T21:33:00.010+08:00

My family !

25th october is mommehs birthday , celebrated on the 18th instead since terence had field camp training and sissy will not be in SG . sooooo , my family and juleana went to have dinner at greenwood fish market @ bukit timah . some Ulu place near Ju's haus . after that , went to Party World ! :D

Happy Birthday MOMMY !
sorry that i used to made you cry everynight in the past
i love you . i love you . i love you !

knowing that she wouldnt read this msg , i still want to sayyyy how much i regretted making her hurt . or prolly she reads my blog ? idk ? creepy huh if your mother reads your blog .

mwah

2008-10-20T23:28:00.009+08:00

hello littttle earthlings !

okay so i was forced to stay at home for a day becos initially was supposed to spend time with hunniebobo dear today but she was working . nevermind ! so i kept myself occupied by connecting myself to the cyber world ...

1) online shopping
2) watching Miss no good

3)checking out this Gucci wallet i saw in paragon's boutique and knowing i cannot afford it , look ! there's a ribbon . so CUTEZXCXZZXC . so meeeezxczxc like the ribbon on my head . ahhahahaha .

4) forcing paris hilton to advertise my album .

&lastly .....

Happy 15th birthday mallie baby ! cheer up and be happy (:+(: I LOVE YOU !!

oh yes ! celebrated mommehs birthday on the 18th instead of actual date 25th becurze of bro's field training , will post picchaas when juleana uploaded it on facebook :D huuuuuuhooooooooh !

happy bday

2008-10-16T20:07:00.012+08:00

wednesday , 15th october

skipped school today had late lunch with jio jio @ subway . was happily eating my subway cookies and thenn i heard a voice trouble_wong says EH STEPHANIE YOU FAILED YOUR PHYSICS ..... BY ONE MARK . daaaang . the whole of subway knows i failed my physics . fewwww minutes later received a msg from paul saying i failed too .

hunniebobo and i went to OUR train track to take some photos , wanted to make her birthday special , thats to let her get hit by a train while i take her photos so that she can die on her birthday . JUST KIDDING . hahaha . time flies , ive been living with thomas's train track for 12 solid years . huuhooh ! i love you choo choo !! so noisy but i likeee !

i like this picture of hers , i take one ohffu coursiie la !

After everything , settled down get onto my msn etc etc . and a few others told me about my lousy results mostly failed :/

HAHPEE 16th BIRTHSIDAY JIO JIO !!!
I love you <3
mwah ^_^
Thursday , 16th october

im gonna blog about my results so that i can refer to it next year and compare the results hoho . you can skip it , i wouldnt want to bore my friends .

failed english and chinese and physics , mostly BY ONE MARK WTF . cannot blame i dont understand summary at all and i dont have time for my paper MT and physics was same day as AMATH P2 how can pass ?

got back S.S and Amath papers yesterday in fact all of my papers . very happy with Humanities , 40/50 for Social studies and 34/50 for geog . HUUHOOH ! my marks for emath remained stagnant it was same as MYE .

ms tan went through the horrible Amath paper 2 first only 10 passes in my class , she kept me in suspense for Paper one i thought i was gonna fail for Amath since paper two was quite badly done however , paper one = 50/60 !!! my tappered eyes for once enlarged and my jaw dropped opened .

k nuff , i'll be having O Levels SPA Practical on 28th and 29th october ! BRRRRRRRRRRRRRR . i cant afford to fail physics SPA )':

Love in new wave

2008-10-16T17:49:00.018+08:00

Tuesday , 14th october

the very patient jolie waited for me to finish my End of year and both of us went to celebrate her 16th birthday :D i brought her to holland Village to have the famous cold rock ice cream ! i had that last week with sissy and juleana too ! pictures below , we girls took like XXX pictures but im not those bloggers who'll flood my own blog with pictures so , toooooo bad . after holland V , went to orchard for shopping , sriously ah , there's nth worth buying , most things you see in far east looks so " made in thailand / china product " and they mark up the price so high ? ahaha . k but i managed to invest my moolahs on another paul frank top becurzeee paul frank is my friend :D i want a paul frank cruiser bike can ??? like almost all the boutiques i went to be it London , thailand , taiwan , all also have the chio chio bicycle . kawaii nehs ^_^

bus rides with jio jio :D * super niang tone *

jio jio 's birthday cakes !

ice cream cup cake cute eh ? from cold rock

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIO JIO !!

cold rock

i rock :D heh

leaving holland v

tea-break @ taka

octopussy balls :D

she dared me to put this disgusting picture of me HAHAHA ! laugh sey !

hoi , heheheheehehe and her disgusting photo

S T E P H Y

stephy

2008-10-09T22:07:00.005+08:00

i've been glued to the computer since afternoon watching Bu1 Liang4 xiao4 hua2 , 不良笑花 by rainie yang & wilber pan , its so hilarious ! cannot stop watching this show ! i envy those people who can speak chinese very fast with proper pronunciation like Yang cheng lin ! omg how did she do that ? haha speaking of her , i used her name for CT Paper 1 .

gosh , even after eoy i have to go back for studies , tuition , CCA . fuck so tiring . i can even drop the thoughts of uncle dumping me in London for my vacation . im waaaaay too busy . howeva , next year Europe trip after O's . soooo looking forward , by then lil will be around 4 ? heehee and idk whether i'll be going away for holiday this time , :/ bangkok is totally out . fuck those crazy people . mommeh's planning smth , i guess ? shall not blog out which country yet, its not confirmed too . haha , if i go away again , it'll be the third time this year -.- and school's organizing some one day trip to johor -.- sounds so boring .

look at my hair last december , like a fucking ah lian .

one more paper on mondayyyyy then orh ke yi meet hunniebobo for playtime babeh . HUUU HOOOH !! :D

Qing Zhu (celebration) - Rainie Yang

september - october post

2008-10-09T12:57:00.015+08:00

i've never sat unprepared for any exams its not like sec 3 eoy is the most impt exam but i feel damn disappointed , how'd you feel when your uncle and auntie have high hopes and they spent THOUSANDS for your education , and its only secondary school education hurhur . k one more paper to go !! hahah .

Friday , 19th september

went to orchard with Ved , Xin ling , hunniebobo :D

Friday , 26 th september

went to gillman village to have dinner with my lovely cousins from my mum's side , my brother finally came back from 2 weeks of army . haha . botak boy .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO VICTORIA (cousin's wife) TERENCE , TRINA

i already have a big age gap between my siblings , and even wider gap with my cousins . sucks to be the youngest manzxc

sunday , 28th september

uncle's flying back to londy went to some Hotel for dim sum lunch with my relatives ,cousins, john and juleana i forgot the name but its just opposite raffles city . then walked to raffles city bought birthday presents for two of my cuzzies tina and alex . havent met them since last december , they live in london thats why .

Alex , she's pregnant again ! :D Lil's gonna have a sibling ! congrats !

Tina :D i hope she cheers up and come down to SG soon !

Friday , 3rd october

went to westmall with felicia then decided to go to paul's condo to study , then was delayed because we met some friends then slack slack abit then off to his condo then met hunniebobo and we ate late lunch at westmall . so i went to westmall 3 times in a day . poweeer .

Saturday , 4th october

celebrated bro's birthday this time with teh fam , mischa , john and juleana @ sushi tei Paragon

my brother and mischa

juleana and me

heh heh heh

eoy :/

2008-09-17T18:58:00.018+08:00

Friday , 12th september

celebrated my uncle's 60 th birthday @ some hotel i forgot ! im bad at remembering hotel names laaah hurhur . The food is specially picked , not from the menu and the food taste damn good ! thats for sure , my cousin spent so much time and effort looking for the best hotel with the best food to celebrate her dad's birthday so sweet of her aint it ? i wish i could do that for my dad as well .

pictures , some were taken using uncle's cam / bro's $1000 +++++ camera of course my brotha's pictures turn out nicer laaaa , you can tell by the flash colour and the quality of the picture !! 0.0 super chio la my bro's camera .

after the dinner , went to party world with my cuzs , no pix though cos we took using fish eye camera havent develop yet !

chinese style ham burger

shark's fin soup , damn filling the shark's fin , yummy !

pork

4th dish , lamb chop .

mommehs and my aunty who dotes on me alot ! HEH :D

happy birthday :D

yummy lobster noodles

dessert !

Saturday , 13th september

Chalet and pasir ris :D

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gonna be a short post , will blog prolly after eoy . im trying to keep myself distracted with studies and im gonna neglect my laptop for this period of time hahaha

hehe so happy like finally CCA step down already . i swear this is damn reason why my exams were so lousy . not like im devoted to my cca but i swear it did pull me down BADLY by increasing 2 dance prac per week which happened last year also but i was smart enough to buck up for eoy cheychey stephanie but this year , im not that lucky .

everybody's blog is counting down to EOY aiyoh so friggintating make me read already my heart beats faster . i kept holding my notes whenever i have the chance to study ? act only lah nth goes in also however hard i tried , my friends even thought i was so hardworking -.- do i look more intelligent by holding a book and reading it whenever i have to time to ? HAHAHAH . K .

played powerball for PE today , but i prefer playing frisbee ley , because sriously i cant catch ball and my team mates always dont want to pass to me LOL . am i that clumsy ? yeah prolly , frisbee for previous lesson was great though at least my classmates discover the other side of me HAHAHAH . crap .

aiyoh i thought i said it was gonna be a short post , but i get too carried away and my fingers are being sucha bitch they would not stop typing how ???? urggg .

i miss lilyboo but she's living in the other side of the globe ):

BOO !

2008-09-05T04:14:00.002+08:00

HAHA KK I give up i break fast already after 8 hours without food and water . my left over subway cookies i brought back just now are damn tempting .

haha i feel disgusted with myself for blogging shit stuffs sriously dont know why either . its so horrible . Imagine some Stranger who dont even know a single shit about me comes along and judge me ? ahhh . bullshit la . If you think im really that pathetic , think again ^_^ If you're completely clueless on what happened to me ? Great . Let it stay that way . The only thing im lacking is self-discipline and i havent found the right ingredients to solve my problems yet ! you'll never know what im thinking of right now . ahh damn i know im making people confused . nevermind ! im happy (:

My uncle from london is comingggggg must do some packing up for my room ! i think im gonna gain weight when my uncle comes becox he is a chef and his food are darn right delicious , how can anyone resist it you tell me ??

its 4 in the morning now yawnzxc

You got a friend - McFly

Happy shietzxc

2008-09-04T20:51:00.007+08:00

helloo ! geeehehehehe back to blogging again , yeah dont know why i just feel like publishing a new post . I feel so happy today idky also ! but wait one thing so sad lah my inflammation disease is back and it is on the same cheek same spot same size . ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG !

kk firstly , woke up late for physics spa supp 9am -11am but wasnt that late when i reached school (: and physics lessons/experiments sriously does no help for me because i always copy answers *frowns* . Mr Pan ordered 6 pizzas for the class of 12 person ? which means 4 slices per head from 11am - 1 pm , I ATE 3 SLICES ONLY IM BLOATED UNTIL I WANT DIE AND ITS SO BLOODY FILLING MY TUMMY LOOKS LIKE 5 MONTHS PREGNANT .

secondly , 1pm - 2.30pm , physics lessons with Mr Pan the very patient tcher who always answer my irritating questions and the lovable classmates e1 cum e2 . tok crapzxc and gossipzx with them sisters , Terrorist & Z Lin who sits in front of me never fails to entertain/teach me during phy lessons lah .

Thirdly , Met my hunniebobo for subway even though my pizza havent digest yet i still ate , didnt want to pangseh her eat alone , YOU SEE THEN MY TUMMY FAT UNTIL I LOOK LIKE 7 MONTHS PREGNANT BLOODY BLOATED K AND IM GONNA FAST FOR THE NEXT FEW HOURS .

Forth , met up with the sweetbeings Vedelene , xinling and friends , had study sessions with them all , havent had a good laugh since last week must say today is best best lah . terence came to pick hunniebobo and me up -.- show off driving skills . ahah . but too bad going NS in a few days time .

" good ol sec 2 days uh huh "

i wonder why i keep sending wrong msges to people these days *fowns X2* i guess my eyes are too small hahahahahahhahahahhaha k sorry !

Disturbia (Main Radio Edit) - Rihanna

again :/

2008-09-02T18:34:00.006+08:00

i cant stop blogging these few days , hahaha wtf . since im totally screwed up and beyond hope , i give up man . i have no goals in life , well not anymore , and this sounds so tragic ,

I . So . Pathetic .

it seems to me that everyone cannot be trusted , and im always the last to know everything , this made me feel even more dumb laa , guess i was too naive ...

setting aside , yesterday had study sessions with some schoolmates
http://herheartdesires.blogspot.com/ for more info . hahah .

found a few random pix in my camera i think fei fei took it ?

teck joker looks like he's pouting / whistling . HAHAHAHHA . :P by the way , you have small eyes too !

lepaked awhile with teh 6 of them , then off to lepak / heart to heart talk with someone else , thank you for sending me home laaaa , i know my haus area is damn spooky and dangerous at night man , sorry for the risk ^_^

shocking i put this convo up , nahh im not being random there's always a reason to blog some stuffs , even the little details in life , doesnt harm to do so right ?

TECK : JOKER says:
u GIRL leh

TECK : JOKER says:
i GUY!

TECK : JOKER says:
must earn a living wan

S t e p h a n i e says:
girl and guy whats the diff !

TECK : JOKER says:
must FEED my future wife and kids

S t e p h a n i e says:
aiseh !

TECK : JOKER says:
girl just sit down wait for guy to feed u can liao

TECK : JOKER says:
girl is marry correct guy can le.

S t e p h a n i e says:
hahha . yeah . but i must work hard as well , in case i marry the wrong guy

TECK : JOKER says:
I MUST LET GIRLS THINK THAT IM THE CORRECT GUY.

S t e p h a n i e says:
LOL ! EVIL

now , that reminds me of someone who used to say this to me . hurhur .

k bye .